Willing to fail, willing to fall - how we rise. Weekend from the heart(h)

A smallish pondering on our rise to oneness. Our rise to truly meeting who we are, through our conscious awakening to pure awareness.

If you have ever gone down the rabbit hole of conscious awareness, awakening, realisation, knowing self, discovering oneness … choose your words and framing of the journey … you will know that it is a deep deep hole. And - as required - we will each find what fits at the time, what makes sense. We aren’t all in the same space / stage of awareness and so every level of knowing needs to be available for all of us to find our aha moments.

This is one of the key discussions in the OLS work - that we meet each other where we are - so that we can each be within our own space of opening to awareness. We simply can’t take in what we don’t know, until we are ready to know - ready to learn - ready to open….

Ready and willing to fall and fail…

Why fall and fail? Because without this willingness we don’t crack. Without cracking we can’t open. Without opening we simply cannot expand.

Therefore radical acceptance not only offers and opens the heart it leads all way forward.

In light of that - I wanted today to share a small pondering for each of us - an awareness that calls us to consider …

Have you ever realised that our consciousness is found based on our experiences? And that the hard parts, the trauma, the dark nights hold the deepest lessons to return.

Found not formed - for consciousness already is - the space we fall into again to discover or awaken to what already is.

It is indeed very rare that one would rise in consciousness without trauma* for the majority our experiences of trauma expedite or pave our way to rise into new forms of ourselves.

They aren’t even new forms - let’s be clear - we will see ourselves as a changed form but we are in fact returning to our original form - our true form and self - our realised self.

Until we know who we are. Life will show us. If we never know who we are Life will own us.

Taking time to know our truth means life will offer us experiences to discover that. Life knows it, we live into the discovery of it. It is within each and every experience that we encounter that we are lead into our being and becoming.

We each will recognise that the comfortable rides are so ease filled and joyous - we can dance through them - and they are required spaces of time that offer us encouragement to keep going. They are the moments we live for. But they aren’t the spaces that dig us into finding the gold for the next cracks to fill. They are the moments we live through.

These spaces are the push and pull - the tug of war - the deep thought and powerful angsts that keep us up at night. These are what crack us - to build us - expand us again and again.

Never owning who we are means Life will.

We are owned by all that we create our Life to be. All that we consume around us and offer our time and existence to. Our choices, decisions all made by that which we offer our time and purpose to, that owns us - shapes us - and will either build us or hold us. If we aren’t willing to be aware of our Life, of steering our Life being conscious of our Life, we are asking someone or something else to lead us.

If we are in surrender then Life will lead, if we are in darkness we are being lead by powers we give over to that can take over our truth and lead us into disarray.

We are either willing to know and lean in or we are willing to be lead. We are opening to fall and fail so we learn and carve new roads or we are allowing ourselves to be carved by someone else.

Our growth into awareness means undressing the falsity - disrobing the delusion - and stepping naked into our oneness. Our pure truth.

Here’s how it sits with me and what I know in response to this thought:

Every response we ever have is what we are capable of responding with at that time. Often even if we have greater awareness and respond from a lower energy that is all we are capable of in that moment because it is what we do and what we choose. So be gentle with you …

When in the level of consciousness that we have and are aware of our actions and thoughts, in every moment, we respond exactly as intended/required/capable of. So be honest with that …

What doesn’t sit well with most people is looking back and second-guessing that - and instead of always moving from here space because this is where we are - we have such a tendency to use hindsight and say I could have done that better and that is an enormous part of the angst that we carry forward into the future Angst over past actions. So let go of that …

If we accept and use compassion for ourselves and understand that how we have responded is the very best we could do with what we are aware of, or the best we could do with the current energy we have / or the tools we had to use at that time, we allow ourselves to have done all we could, and then in the next moment, we can change that again and again and again … So be open to change …

All of our experiences in life are neither positive or negative - they become so in our own pathways through our use of them - they aren’t offered as a positive or negative rather as an experience to draw out our own inner capacity, to make us aware of the tools that we work well with, the skills and tools we know well within and are capable of using. And the ones we have not yet learn how to handle well. All of it brings us each time they reoccur to an opportunity of utilising our great self at every moment. So allow yourself to be revealed through them …

It is despite inner talk of pain and angst and inability to then not turn back, not dig within to pull out pains to wrangle them, merely surrender to them, and talk with them to let them go otherwise their constant conversations and connections tear pieces off us for all that we should have done …

And there is no ‘should have’ there is awareness of other options and other ways through the results of our experiences and that awareness teaches us a great way of moving forward each time. So wait for them to appear rather than expressing should have …

The capacity of what this offers, a whole lot of this of course, comes down to knowing self and holding self-worth deeply as our anchor, loving self, and most importantly, seeing it as being an essential part of all that is sacred, and all that is around us. So embrace this …

As we learn to work with this better, we begin to see our actions and inactions impacting everything that is around us, and we understand the nuance of needing to consider ourselves as one with all things in our actions,

This is the difference between considering ourselves as our actions as opposed to having to consider all things in our actions

That’s an enormous difference when you know / own your awareness. We’re already considering everything as one, when we don’t know we are trying to consider everyone else in our choices

And we have all this to learn

And we have all this to rise to

And yes, we are yet to have seen a time when we have all risen in this awareness to make these great changes at the same time, but the potential of that is always right at our next breath. What is life going to offer us like these elections like these wars like these fires and floods to show us What it is that we can dig within to become

And so becomes the journey of life, realising one and aligning with life through that and working as one with her.

Oneness is our place and space. It is our truth. We are all walking each and all home to this knowing. To this wholeness and as such rather than attempting to do this from disconnect, we fall into our conscious rising offered by Life and allow ourselves to return.

Willing to fail and fall is - I am willing to break into a new way. We have to be ready for that - for it is/does/will always occur - It is Life. AND it is this moment - happening around us as well as within us - cracks chasms gorges happening in order for the reshaping of all to come.

And we are called to deeply know our truth of oneness so we can rise together.

* only a small percent would - (and I would add that the small percent would recall much of their past knowing lives that holds within them the deep well of lived advancements)

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